As some of you may know, October is Baby Loss Awareness month. Our Lily and our loss is something I have never been quiet about and I am saddened when I hear of people who feel they can't talk about their baby or their loss. In 2013 I took part in the Capture Your Grief project and I am going to do it again this year (I missed a day but that's ok!). This is the only time you will find me hash-tagging! Lol.

#captureyourgrief #iwanttotalkaboutit

October 2nd - Capture your grief Day 2

~Who are they?~

She is my Lily Tyne. She is the child who made me a mum. She is someone that taught me more about love than I ever knew. She is my inspiration. She is a big sister Zeke talks about often. She is a part of our family that is forever loved and immensely missed.

It's funny, when I think about her now, I remember holding her small body in my arms and I remember the baby she was, but I think of her as a 5 year old. I think about her as though we had lost a walking, talking, playing child, though we never even heard her cry. I miss the memories we desperately wanted to have and I often look at Zeke and Annie and wonder what she would have been like. Would she have been a deep thinker, or cheeky, or funny or theatrical?

She is forever my baby but what we lost was a complete life and I will spend the rest of mine wondering what could have been, while accepting and embracing, loving, what was. She was worth every moment and IS still loved and missed.